I cannot even explain the levels of frustration I reached today. I ended up calling my mom and broke down and cried. I felt like a moron for getting so upset about everything. This is what drove me to the meltdown:
1) Shelby caught a stomach virus, therefore I caught a stomach virus.
2) Shelby caught a cold, therefore I caught a cold.
3) Shelby caught pink eye, therefore I caught pink eye.
4) I am 8 months pregnant, and the slightest chasing after Shelby brings on Braxton Hicks contractions. That wouldn't be so bad except that I am afraid it will start bring on actual contractions like I had last Wednesday.
5) Scout camp outs. Don't get me wrong, I support Jeremy in his calling, but there are some things about these camp outs that annoy me.
a) They go once a month. That might be normal, I don't know. But, I work full time AND watch Shelby all day. Friday nights and Saturdays are my time to relax. I don't care if that sounds selfish of me. I think some of the dads need to get more involved with the Scouts anyway. If they can't go, then they shouldn't have the camp outs as often. They can do merit badges another time.
b) These camp outs are over an hour away at a place where there is no cell phone coverage.
c) I never know when on Saturday Jeremy is going to get home. I think it is a Mom survival thing to need to know when her husband will be home so he can take a turn and give her a break. Like during the week, I know Jeremy will be home around 5:15, so I mentally prepare myself saying, "Ok, you just have to make it til 5:15 and that's it".
d) The fact Jeremy doesn't understand my frustrations with all this, and I just come off to him as the witchy wife.
6) I did not sleep well at all last night. I got to bed late because our ghetto neighbors were coming and going all night, bumping their music so loudly that it sounded like someone was banging on the wall. Then when I did get to sleep, Shelby was either on top of me or had her feet in my back. I finally got up at 6 because my eyes were itching and burning so badly anyway.
7) Another neighbor, the guy behind us, decided to mow his lawn for THREE hours today. THREE HOURS! He was on a riding mower! I swear he was just bored and riding it for fun. It was so loud though that I could not get Shelby down for a nap, therefore I couldn't take a nap.
It was at this point that I called my mom. I know I sounded like a crazy, hormonal pregnant person. I don't care. I had reached my breaking point. I am still pretty annoyed, but have cooled off slightly, taking comfort in the fact that Jeremy is teaching my lesson tomorrow so I don't have to worry about that.
3 comments:
Hang in there, you are almost done. I have little patience these last few days too. I can hardly move, and just am ready to not be pregnant.
I am sorry! I know what you are going through! I feel like Roy is gone all the time! Then when he gets home and I want to go somewhere he asks me to bring a kid along! At some point I just need me time!!!
I soooo know what you are talking about. I had absolutely no patience for anyone or anything and would burst into tears frequently in those last few months. But, you can do it!! Hang in there!!
And you will feel better once you have your sweet baby here and are no longer pregnant. I am amazed that in those last few months, I was just sooo tired chasing Caleb around and just generally exhausted. But now, two months after giving birth I feel 100x better. So, there is hope on the horizon! We are thinking of you and wishing you well these last few weeks.
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